When I started this journey – and shortly after started this blog – my intention was to become like Mary. To sit at the foot of Jesus and focus my energy and attention on what mattered most. My walk with Jesus. My husband. My kids. Serving others. Loving others.
A year and a half ago I told all my clients I was quitting – shutting down that chapter of my life to find a new pace where I could be more balanced. I felt strongly that God was leading me every step of the way.
But I still need to pay bills. I still needed income. The doors of another job opportunity opened and I walked through those doors. I prayed for God to open the doors and they opened. I never felt 100% peace in the decision . . . but I felt 90% peace. And the doors were wide opened. So I walked in.
It wasn’t a good fit.
So, why did the doors open? I am not sure. Maybe God wanted me there for a short season. Maybe it was to teach me once again that my “career” doesn’t define me. That I need to find my definition in Christ. Maybe it was to teach me to wait on Him.
Now that I have quit that job I can see even more clearly the importance of being still with God. Listening for His voice. And experiencing His refreshing. And once again to focus on the things that matter most.
Acts 3:19: Repent, then, and turn to God, so that your sins may be wiped out, that times of refreshing may come from the Lord (NIV)
- Joshua 13